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| Storypeople from Brian Andreas entitled "Whales" |
Have you guys ever felt like this?
Like you wish sometimes you could join the whales?
I found this Storypeople print about 4 years ago and I remember even back then I wanted to join the whales. I actually think of this picture pretty often.
Maybe that's sad. I remember sending the pic to my hubs way back when, and told him how I felt and I remember him saying how that made him sad for me.
It's the truth tho.
I wish I could swim away with the whales and not have to hear my thoughts, the noise, feel the heartache, remember the sadness and hard moments from the last 2 years...
Most times I wish I could erase my memory..even erase the good memories..
Everything reminds me of Mom...everything...and sometimes, it's just too much.
I envy those whales and the freedom they have underwater.
Someday I know I will have that same freedom and I'll want to live life on land.
Until then, I will keep pushing forward as much as I can, even on the hardest of days.
I will try to give myself a break on the hard days.
I will continue to work out with D and do my best to make good food choices.
I will continue to see my therapist and spend time with family and friends.
I will continue to fight and not give up.
Mom wouldn't want me too, and frankly neither do I.
The whales didn't give up, they just found a better way of living in peace....
And I guess I will find my way too....
xoxoxo
I remember when the whales had wings she said.
Whatever happened? I said. It got to be too noisy with all the airplanes & other stuff, so they flew into the ocean and never came back. Some days, she added, I think about going too.
