DAY 3 - P.M.

DAY 3 - P.M. POST

 

Happy Evening! I hope you had a great day!

 

Besides the wonderful time I had at the museum today, I'd have to say that I finally had a day where I felt good.  Like really good. Even though my jeans still didn't quite fit, and I still hated every picture I took, I felt good being just....me. It's been a long time since I've felt that way.

 

Maybe it was the scale this morning...maybe it's the cleanse, or the fact that I got to have a meal today!...maybe it's the awesome workout I had yesterday, or all the awesome workouts I've had w D the last few months..maybe it was just the fun I was having..maybe it was all of it combined?!

Whatever it was, I was in a great mood day and all night so far and just feels well...great!

 

Funny how after so long when you just don't feel like yourself..for so many reasons, and then you have what feels like a normal day just being you.... just how much happiness and freedom it brings.

It makes me grateful for today.

 

 

Via

 

So here I am after DAY 3...

My food schedule looked a bit like this:

Breakfast: Shake w Accelerator Capsule

Snack: Brown Rice - Rice Cake

Lunch: 1 Serving of Chicken and Rice, Side Garden Salad w about 1 Tbs. Balsamic Dressing

Dinner: Shake w Accelerator Capsule

Late Night Snack:  Some awesome hot tea that D introduced me to from China Town!

 

First meal in 2 days!

 

I'd have to say I'm pretty content!  At lunch I didn't even finish all of my chicken and rice, and I wasn't really hungry in the afternoon! By the time dinner came around I was definitely ready for something, but now, hours later, I'm hungry but nowhere near how hungry I was last night!

I'm also pretty sore thanks so an awesome workout with D yesterday! I tell ya this is why I love working out with her!  Each session is always different, and I always end up feeling like I worked a different part of my body!  She just rocks!  

 

So DAY 3 not so bad!

The key is for sure to stay busy and plan ahead! By bringing my lunch and snacks with me, I was able to fight the temptations of the food court much easier than if I hadn't.

I'm going to be realistic here and say that I may crash...I probably will crash and just want to be done with this whole cleanse...

But I want to stay positive and think about the good that will come of it, the good that has already come of it! I don't want to disappoint myself or anyone else so the truth is...I'm just have to finish it!

 

I do have other fears and concerns for after I'm done with the cleanse, but maybe I'll leave that for tomorrow!

 

So with that I leave you and wish you goodnight and sweet dreams!

I wish you good rest and peace of mind..even if it's only for a bit!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



DAY 3 - Shake Day - Finally!!!

DAY 3!

Interested in trying the shake or the cleanse click HERE!

Finally a shake day!  Yay!! I was so excited this morning when I got up!  

I really had a hard time sleeping last night, well at least falling asleep. I was SOO hungry. And not just like your mid day, yeah I can eat hungry, it was like...starving hungry! It took everything in me not to get out of bed and have a late night snack!  It was another night of tossing and turning, but for the most part I feel rested!

So I thought I would start the day with writing about my morning...I was up early today because I'm spending the day at a museum with an old bestie and her son!  When I was getting ready to shower I looked at myself in the mirror and thought...there's now way I've made even the slightest change. I looked exactly the same. Strangely I feel like my stomach inside is shrinking a bit, it't hard to explain, but it does in a way feel a bit smaller, so I guess that's a change. But physically on the outside I felt like I looked exactly the same. Not that I'm expecting miracle changes overnight, but I thought maybe a little something you know..so I texted my husband another sad text..but then I remembered I got to weigh myself on Day 3! 

Off to the scale I went with my head down, feeling defeated already...

To my surprise....the scale showed a 9 POUND difference!  I couldn't believe it! I was shocked! 

How could this be?!?!  Now, it could be water weight, I'll have to ask D about that tomorrow, but still, 9lbs down...I'll take it!  I'm also supposed to take measurements today but I'll probably do that tomorrow w D!

So now head up, feeling relieved that my "suffering" payed off! Even if I only lose another 5lbs by the end of the whole thing, that's okay!  I will have succeeded! 

So off to the museum I go with my pre-made lunch (thanks hubby!), my 2 snacks for the day and the alarm on my phone set for my designated snack times! 

Have a great day and I will post again tonight to let you know how the day went!  

=) 

DAY 2!!!

DAY 2

 

 

It's 7pm and I can almost....mostly...say I made it through Day 2!

Yay me!

 

I had a hard time falling asleep last night...woke up earlier than usual with my pup and then couldn't really fall back asleep. So I was tired today but I got through the day without even taking a nap!

 

So I'm not going to lie...I woke up this morning not all that excited about my day of "only fluids" but I just kept thinking..tomorrow I can have a meal! Tomorrow I can wake up and have a yummy chocolate shake for breakfast!  I also sooooo wanted a cup of coffee!  Which by the way after talking with D about my coffee w cream addiction, when I can start enjoying the yummy caffeine in the a.m's again I will be making the switch to coffee with almond milk cream. Hmmm...we shall see how yummy that is ;)

 

Speaking of  D, we had a great session today and let me just say...it was TOUGH!

Always a good tough of course, but D had to push me a bit more today than usual I think. 

By the end of the workout I felt a bit dizzy and light headed, but I made it home for cleanse drink round 2.

 

I thought I was going to come home and crash, but I did quite the opposite. I had my weekly therapy session, had a great phone call with Aunt January and worked on my kitchen cabinets. 

I actually felt pretty good this afternoon! I felt in control of things and even turned up the music and danced a bit while painting!  As hard as the last 2 days have been, doing this cleanse is giving me control of my health in a way I never really had. It's mind over matter and I'm choosing to fight the temptations and take back the control of the urges to eat, or more splurge.

 

As I sat down this evening while Dan cooked dinner and what will be my delish 4-600 calorie lunch tomorrow I started  thinking about the next now 7 days and how much work it will be..how much thought it will take and energy it will be to fight the temptations.  BUT, I'm pushing those thoughts aside, I just have to or I won't make it! Like anything else...it's one day at a time.

It's strength of mind, body, and soul, and I'm going to find it in me to finish this cleanse!

I'm going to finally follow through with a commitment and succeed!

 

I'm much more hungry tonight than I was last night and I've had a bit of headache for a few hours now. I'm feeling good energy wise, but like last night I'll be heading to bed early!

Staying busy is key I think as well as planning ahead.  I'm focusing on tomorrow now and looking forward to breakfast!  Yay!

 

Today I had the thought, man with all of the other emotional struggles I have going on, why or how am I going to get through this. I don't have an answer except I just am. Simple as that and that feels good! That gives me strength and the power to just keep moving forward!

That and the encouragment from D and my wonderful friends and family!

 

Again I say sweet dreams to you and wish you a restful nights sleep free from the stress and worry that may be consuming you!

 

'night!

 

Via

 

 

 



"The incredible shrinking woman" - DD

Its been almost 5 months since my last post.  I guess you could say I haven't been able to bring myself to writing..or even look at my page. It's just a reminder. A reminder of my Mom, of the life I once had with her. It's memories I don't want to forget but are too hard to think about right now..

At some point, maybe even in 9 days, (I'll explain!) I can come back to writing about my grief, my healing, or maybe even just the happy memories..even maybe the not so good memories...

So until then, I was encouraged to journal about an experience I never thought I would do...an experience I never thought that even if I had tried it, I would never finish it. 

So here it is.  I'm doing a cleanse.  Yes a cleanse.  Surprised?  I am!
Let me back up a little bit...
Way back in November I decided I was going to commit to start truly taking care of myself.  Not like I had never tried before, but this time, I thought, I won't make it through this year if I don't start doing some good for me.  So through the wonderful world of Facebook I contacted an old friend from the neighborhood who had become a personal trainer!  I'll call her D for short, but you can check her out HERE at Body Revolution!

Since then I have been training with her in her sweet little apartment in the city.  She has been and continues to teach me so much about food, health, exercise, and much much more!  She truly is helping to bring me back to life and now I couldn't imagine life without our sessions! 
Now back to the cleanse. More about D later!...D had told me about the cleanse awhile ago, and after much thought I figured, why not?
Not only would it give me a boost (esp after the holidays), but I could also probably use it!

D also encouraged me to journal about my cleansing experience to not only someday day help others who would want to do a cleanse, but to also encourage health and wellness for those going through tough times.  I thought, that's exactly what I should be doing.  I also figured it would help me get back into writing...So here I am, and today is DAY 1.

I'm doing the 9 day (yes 9 days!) Isagenix Cleanse.  The breakdown is a bit like this....
2 Cleanse Days - You drink all of your meals and have a couple tiny snacks
5 shake days - 2 meals are protein shakes and one meal that is 400-600 calories
2 Cleanse Days - Same as above

I took my weight and measurements yesterday w D, and no I did not take before pics. I can barely stand myself in the mirror, let alone on film!

I promise the next 9 days of posts won't be as long, I won't need to introduce the whole background story!

DAY 1

Goes a little something like this...

I'm so ready for this and I am so determined to finish...I just kept thinking to myself "I know I'm going to be hungry..just stay busy and in the summer..it will all have been worth it!"
I'm on a schedule and the day is broken down like this:

Morning: Cleanse Drink (basically a powder mixed w 8oz. of water)
Mid Morning: Snack which includes these awesome chocolate (for lack of a better word) pellets that are just..not good. Plus 2 other snacks. I had 1/2 an apple and 6 almonds. 1 Natural Accelerator Capsule. Water.
Late Morning: Cleanse Drink
Early Afternoon: Snack (same as above)
Mid Afternoon: Cleanse Drink
Early Evening: Snack..I mixed it up a bit and had a hard boiled egg w 6 almonds!
Evening:  Cleanse Drink

I can't believe it. I mean I can, it's not like I've never heard about how cleanses work..but I can't believe I'm doing this.
The day wasn't that bad believe it or not. I just took it one step at a time. Every time I started to get really hungry it was time for either a cleanse drink or a snack.  D's advice was to stay busy. So that's what I'm doing.  I decided to remodel our kitchen cabinets so I'm now up to my elbows with painting, priming, sanding and cleaning. In reverse order of course =)

I felt determined to not cheat either. Trust me the trip to the food section at Target for my brother didn't help. Nor did making him Mac n Cheese and Pasta...but I didn't cheat!  I didn't even test a noodle! I was pretty proud of myself for that!

I'm trying so hard to push the negative thoughts out of my head...they go like this...
"Knowing me and my body I bet at the end of this nothing will have changed..."
"I'm so hungry how the hell am I going to do this for 8 more days...."
"How am I going to possibly work out! I don't even have the energy to think at this point!"

I think my biggest fear is that my weight and measurements are going to have NOT changed at the end of my 9 days. I know, maybe you're thinking how is that possible...well what if it is!?!  Ok ok...this is probably just my lack of confidence and self-esteem talking here...but truly I'm fearing the worst.  I really am determined to finish the whole thing and get some results!  Let's see how I feel after tomorrow right!

It's about 10p.m. and I'm hungry and have a bit of a headache...Did I mention I had to give up alchohol and caffeine too!
I figure at this point it's just time for bed!  I'm going to hopefully sleep well and think about my DAY 2. If I think about it enough and prepare myself for the day..I'll know what to expect and will have more strength to fight the temptations!

I can do this. At least that's what I'm going to continue to tell myself. It's only 9 days and at the end of it all...hey, I may come out of it healthier and stronger!

So off to bed I go! Til tomorrow!
To you and your empty or full tummies......goodnight and sweet dreams!