Happy Day!

I realized last week after my last post, that I was a bit lost.  I was so lost in my own thoughts and emotions about the past that I wasn't focusing on the here and now.  

I had a session with my therapist (yes therapist...I'm just putting it out there...), and we talked a lot about why I was in fact focusing on the past.  I told her how I started a blog, and that recently I felt stuck writing and was avoiding it in some ways.  

Why?  Why was I avoiding it?  

 I hate when she asks me the tough questions.  

Why am I forcing myself to go back to a place that was painful and scary? 

Who was I doing it for? Me? You? Mom? January? Friends? Family? The Husband?

I didn't know.  I don't know. 

I think I felt like I had to in that moment go back to the days of struggling to be able to move forward.  I'm pretty sure she thought I was crazy! 

I'm stuck moving forward because I don't think I'm ready to share the events of Mom's transplant and what happened afterwards.  I'm not wanting to hide the fact that she was given a second chance at life, but I'm just not ready to go back.

Right now, I'm needing to focus on today.  On what's happening right now. 

We are all getting back to life.  We are all finally finding our way back to normal, and I need to take advantage of that and not worry so much about going back.  The time for that will come and there is no need to force it right?  

So here I am today.  Easter Sunday.  

I woke up feeling great and ready for the day!  

I got up and took some pictures of my favorite things today! 

They are snapshots of the things that make me want to live in the here and now! 

So, let me explain....!!!!

Arts Garden.

Every time I step outside my back door, I have the pleasure of looking at one of the most beautiful gardens on the block!  I love the stages it goes through as the seasons change and as each day goes by...

Ruca.

The second love of my life. She brightens my day..brings me laughter and joy....she knows all my secrets and faults and loves me anyways...she is therapy...she is hope...and she is a reminder that there is more to life than the worry that faces me each and every day.....

The Orange Bracelet.

It's my reminder to be strong...to fight the fight...to advocate...to share the story...

It keeps me close to Mom...to the memories of how close we were to losing her....

It keeps me awake and holds me close to the life I was blessed to live....

The Little House That Could.

We found this sweet little house in our yard when we moved in. 

I can't seem to part with it! 

It reminds me of how proud I am of the work Dan and I have done to give ourselves a home we love.  It lets me wonder about a past that was unknown to me..but makes me want to built memories of our own.....

Marbles.

I love creating little things for the people in my world! 

I've been making marble magnets and I am in love with them!  

They simply make me happy! 

Dan. 

The first love of my life. 

He keeps me safe, and grounded and brings me back down to earth when I begin to fade....he is my strength, my best friend, my laughter, my hope....he makes me want to make it all okay, and is the reason I keep holding on.  

I will be forever in love with him and forever grateful that he loves me unconditionally! 

So today my wish for you and me is that we can live in the moment...and enjoy the sunshine and be thankful for each and every memory we make today! 

Happy Easter! Happy Day! Happy Sunshine!